Monday, March 25, 2013

Here's to a better tomorrow

Guys, it’s been 9 months since my accident, and can I just take a minute to say how done I am with all of it?

I don’t want to be in pain, or toss and turn all night because my legs ache. I want to get out of bed in the morning without needing an hour and half to get up the courage to stand because my legs hurt. that. bad.

I want to run. Oh how I want to run. It’s race season, it’s the perfect weather for running, and I’m itching to get out there.

Some days I think I’ll do it, that I’ll put my shoes on, and my favorite running gear, and just go-and then I sit on my bed and have a little cry fest when reality hits.

It seems like I cry more now than I did those first few weeks in the hospital. I cry in the shower, in my car, sometimes when I’m walking around campus and the guy next to me jogs down the steps without a care in the world while I hobble down one step at a time trying not to grimace. Let’s face it; I’m tearing up a little just writing this.

I've gotten lots of emails asking for recovery updates. Well here it is-I hate this.
Mojo and I went to St. George two weeks ago and for 4 blissful days it was as if I had never been hit. It was the first time in 265 days that I didn't have pain. That’s a really long time.

And then we came home, and the pain hit just as bad as when we left. And I cried and Mojo cried and we struggled. It was so hard for us to have things like they used to be, and then to come home and have all the problems return.

When people tell me they are amazed and how good my attitude is I usually joke that they should have seen me on Wednesday. Well today is my Wednesday. (Figuratively speaking because today is actually Monday-don’t want anyone to get their hopes up that Friday is closer)

I try to be grateful and keep my mind on the positive, but I’m failing miserably. Most of my prayers these days end with me pleading with the Lord to just make it stop and haven’t I done enough?

I’m not writing this so I’ll get a bunch of emails telling me how awesome I am or to keep my head up. I just needed to vent, in a public way, and announce it from the roof tops; I don’t want to do this anymore.

Here’s hoping for a better day tomorrow. 

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Personal Progress Motivator

As part of the youth program I'm apart of at church, we have a program called Personal Progress. It's very similar to the scouting program in that the girls pass off individual projects, it's a wonderful program that's designed to bring these girls (ages 12-18) closer to their Heavenly Father. I did it when I was their age, and now I love that I get to work with these girls on it as well. 

But sometimes, the girls need a little extra push to work on it. Especially the older girls, as life gets busier it gets harder for them to find the time. To help give them that little extra push I found {this} great idea. 

Each Sunday if a girl passes off an experience or a value she gets to come up and take a sucker and tell the other girls which ones she did. Our goal is to have all of the suckers gone by the end of the year.

This is super easy to put together, it only took like 20 minutes to put the whole thing together. 

Styrofoam ball
1 big bag of Dum Dum suckers (I got mine at Walmart)
Pink Tissue Paper 

This project is pretty self explanatory, simply put enough suckers in to completely cover the Styrofoam  I used the pink tissue paper to help fill the bottom of the vase and hide the green foam. 

I used the same saying Marci did.

It's been a fun way to get the girls excited and start working on their Personal Progress. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Monday, March 4, 2013

2013 New Beginnings: Stand Ye in Holy Places

A few weeks ago, as part of our church youth program, we held a program where we invite all of the girls who will be coming into our program this year to spend time with their families and the other girls, and to help them get to know more about what to expect in the next year. 
Each year we have a theme and this year is-"Stand ye in holy places, and be not moved, until the day of the Lord come; for behold, it cometh quickly, siath the Lord" As part of the "Stand ye in Holy Places" we decided to have our focus be on shoes. 
We decorated with shoes and the colors of our program, yellow, blue, red, purple, green, orange, gold, and white.

We went easy on the refreshments, and just ordered cupcakes from a local bakery-

We even had these adorable glitter shoes in each of the program's colors.

And, my favorite part was the favors. We used this template to make the adorable shoes and filled them with chocolate. Each girl got to take one home at the end of the night. 

It was a great success, and of course that's because all the leaders worked together to make it so. It's so fun to put together these nights for the girls.