I know today is Tuesday and so many of you are here for Tutorial Tuesday. I'm glad you came-I hope you'll forgive me for not having Tutorial Tuesday this week in light of things that have happened the last few days. Don't worry it will be back next week with lots of features but today I wanted to do something I haven't done before on this blog.
I often times talk about Mojo and I or my adorable nieces and nephews but for the most part I try and keep my family as well as Mojo's family out of this blog. I've never intended this to be a personal blog even though I do share some things every once in a while.
Today will be different. Today I want to talk about my little sister and how I wish she could stay little and innocent forever. Sunday night Mojo and I were getting ready to head to a neighbor's house for dinner and I was having some problems with my rolls raising so I called my mom. I talked to her about the rolls and figured out my problem and then said goodbye. When I hung up the phone I saw I had a text from my sister. It said that one of my little sister's best friends had been found that morning by his family after he committed suicide and that my little sister was really struggling with the loss.
I was stunned. I had met this boy-he was funny, charming, and completely lovable. He was popular and kind and the type of person everyone wanted to be friends with. And he was my sister's first big crush and I found out later on-he was her first kiss. I was immediately overwhelmed that a boy who was in the prime of his life, who was loved and adored could feel so overwhelming alone and that life was to much to bear and therefore make the decision to end his life.
What overwhelmed me even more was a fierce protection of my little sister and how I could make this better. My little sister and I have not always seen eye to eye as anyone with younger siblings knows. But I love her more then any of my other siblings because she is my baby sister and I feel like it's in my job description to protect her. But how could I protect her from something like this?
I called my mom back as soon as I got the text and talked to her some more after which I called my sister. I talked with her and cried with her and let her know how much I love her. As the night wore on I realized that as much I hated that she would have to come to terms with this I knew she would take this tragedy and turn it into something amazing.
Because that's how my sister is. She is the strongest and most amazing 17 year old I have every met. There are times where she drives me crazy, and she know just what to say or do to push my buttons. But in my family of 7 children my little sister is the strongest of us all. She is a greater example to us then I feel like we are to her.
I am still astounded that something like this could happen to such a sweet boy. I am still saddened at the thought that he never felt like he could share his dark thoughts with someone else. I know my sister will always miss him and that it will be something that will forever shape her life.
But I know my sister, and her strength, this will be something that will effect her life for the better. Sometimes I think I'm a little crazy for being affected by the death of someone I barely knew so much, but then I realize that he was a child-a Child of our Heavenly Father who felt so overwhelmed that he thought death was his only escape. So even though I only met him a few times-he is someone who deserves to be mourned not only for the life that he lived but the life that he could have had. The opportunities he could have had,the experiences that would have shaped his life, and the people he would have touched.
Suicide is something that not very many people feel comfortable with talking about but it's something that needs to be addressed. I don't know how to make the world change but to my little sister and all those affected by suicide I hope they know that we love them, that their family loves them, and that their loved ones are in a better place and surrounded by a loving Father in Heaven and his Son-who died for all mankind to be saved, including those who have lost their way and thought that death by their own hand was the only way.
I'm spending as much time with my little sister as I can and I will do anything she needs me to do to help her get through this difficult time. My heart and my prayers go out to the family of this amazing boy that they may be comforted and supported through this difficult time. I ask that you keep them and everyone effected by this horrible tragedy in your prayers-that they may all feel loved.
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The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints where you can learn more about our beliefs.