Tuesday, November 8, 2011

God be with you till we meet again

I know today is Tuesday and so many of you are here for Tutorial Tuesday. I'm glad you came-I hope you'll forgive me for not having Tutorial Tuesday this week in light of things that have happened the last few days. Don't worry it will be back next week with lots of features but today I wanted to do something I haven't done before on this blog.

I often times talk about Mojo and I or my adorable nieces and nephews but for the most part I try and keep my family as well as Mojo's family out of this blog. I've never intended this to be a personal blog even though I do share some things every once in a while.

Today will be different. Today I want to talk about my little sister and how I wish she could stay little and innocent forever. Sunday night Mojo and I were getting ready to head to a neighbor's house for dinner and I was having some problems with my rolls raising so I called my mom. I talked to her about the rolls and figured out my problem and then said goodbye. When I hung up the phone I saw I had a text from my sister. It said that one of my little sister's best friends had been found that morning by his family after he committed suicide and that my little sister was really struggling with the loss.

I was stunned. I had met this boy-he was funny, charming, and completely lovable. He was popular and kind and the type of person everyone wanted to be friends with. And he was my sister's first big crush and I found out later on-he was her first kiss. I was immediately overwhelmed that a boy who was in the prime of his life, who was loved and adored could feel so overwhelming alone and that life was to much to bear and therefore make the decision to end his life.

What overwhelmed me even more was a fierce protection of my little sister and how I could make this better. My little sister and I have not always seen eye to eye as anyone with younger siblings knows. But I love her more then any of my other siblings because she is my baby sister and I feel like it's in my job description to protect her. But how could I protect her from something like this?

I called my mom back as soon as I got the text and talked to her some more after which I called my sister. I talked with her and cried with her and let her know how much I love her. As the night wore on I realized that as much I hated that she would have to come to terms with this I knew she would take this tragedy and turn it into something amazing.

Because that's how my sister is. She is the strongest and most amazing 17 year old I have every met. There are times where she drives me crazy, and she know just what to say or do to push my buttons. But in my family of 7 children my little sister is the strongest of us all. She is a greater example to us then I feel like we are to her.

I am still astounded that something like this could happen to such a sweet boy. I am still saddened at the thought that he never felt like he could share his dark thoughts with someone else. I know my sister will always miss him and that it will be something that will forever shape her life.

But I know my sister, and her strength, this will be something that will effect her life for the better. Sometimes I think I'm a little crazy for being affected by the death of someone I barely knew so much, but then I realize that he was a child-a Child of our Heavenly Father who felt so overwhelmed that he thought death was his only escape. So even though I only met him a few times-he is someone who deserves to be mourned not only for the life that he lived but the life that he could have had. The opportunities he could have had,the experiences that would have shaped his life, and the people he would have touched.

Suicide is something that not very many people feel comfortable with talking about but it's something that needs to be addressed. I don't know how to make the world change but to my little sister and all those affected by suicide I hope they know that we love them, that their family loves them, and that their loved ones are in a better place and surrounded by a loving Father in Heaven and his Son-who died for all mankind to be saved, including those who have lost their way and thought that death by their own hand was the only way.

I'm spending as much time with my little sister as I can and I will do anything she needs me to do to help her get through this difficult time. My heart and my prayers go out to the family of this amazing boy that they may be comforted and supported through this difficult time. I ask that you keep them and everyone effected by this horrible tragedy in your prayers-that they may all feel loved.


I've touched briefly on my beliefs today-if you would like to know more about what I believe and how I know that Jesus Christ is my Savoir please visit The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints where you can learn more about our beliefs. 


Ashley said...

I think it's wonderful for you to share. My Uncle committed suicide in 1992 at the young age of 24. Although I wasn't quite your sister's age, it was a devastating time for me and our family. It's so cliche but everything happens for a reason. You're right, it's something that isn't talked about but should be addressed. It's had more effects on our family than anyone could imagine...namely my Mom (having lost her only brother...and younger at that) raised us to love each other, live each day to the fullest, and never put off till tomorrow what can be said today because you're not sure if you'll get a tomorrow. And, I've been in your exact shoes as my baby brother's friend committed suicide their Senior year of high school. Being away at school I struggled because I couldn't be there. I wanted (then and still now) to shelter him from all bad things in the world and hold him in my arms forever. All I can say is, you're doing the right thing. It's what an older sibling should do...just be there. You're amazing and I'm sure your lil sis is too. Again, thanks for sharing. Vulnerability can sometimes be a beautiful thing...your readers will appreciate your sincerity and honesty.

God Bless

Angie said...

Kari, My heart is breaking for your sister and this boys family! I'm so sorry that you are all going through this, but what a blessing it is that you are going through it WITH her.Thanks for sharing this with us today...perfectly forgivable to skip out on Tutorial Tuesday....I'll save up my Tute for next week ;)

Jewels said...

I am so sorry to hear of your sisters lost. I know how she feels. Today is the 2nd anniversary of my cousins suicide. He was just a year older than your sister and he was like a bet friend to me. It hurt so much and I could not understand it. I will be praying for your sister and the young man's family as they go through this rough time.

Anna@Directions Not Included said...

Oh Kari, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm praying and sending good thoughts to your sister and her friend's family. I lost a friend to suicide in high school when I was a bit younger than your sister. It definitely changes you. You are good big sister taking care of her. Big hugs to all of you

Erin @ How to Nest for Less said...

So sorry to hear that Kari! Prayers to your friends and family.

Lindsay @Artsy-Fartsy Mama said...

That's so incredibly sad! Big hugs & prayers to all of you.

Counselor Musings said...

Suicide is such a sad and hard thing to deal with. My thoughts & prayers go out to you, your family, and the family & friends of this young boy. Your sister will need support & a listening ear over the next days and weeks, and you can definitely do that for her!

Smallgood said...

Thank you for talking about it (even though it's hard). I find it comforting when other people share their stories of suicide survival. My friend committed suicide at 15. He sounds much like your sister's friend because he was very well liked and very talented. It's been over 12 years since that happens, and there's still some pain and hurt with his loss. I think it's very important to talk about suicide with young people in order to prevent more hurt.

ginger @ literally inspired said...

So sorry to hear this. I have never encountered a suicide before so I can't imagine what your sister must be going through. Thinking about you and your family.


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